A Good One

 I won’t say it’s cool, but it’s sure as hell nicer that the 99° we had  yesterday. I just got through taking a shower, so I decided to throw some sweats on and come outside. I used to do a lot of walking on the local trails. But a setback forced my doctor’s hand, so I was ordered off the trails till fall and winter. While most days I feel pretty good, yesterday walking those school halls with those 100° temps, really wiped me out. 

Much more so than I’d like to admit in fact. But I’m feeling better today and looking forward to hopefully some cooler weather tomorrow. Looking at these selfies I just took, I see a shitload of my Dad and a little of my Mom’s cockiness. They’d probably laugh at me if they could, with all this reflecting I do. I think for the most part they just lived in the now and to hoped to see the next day. And isn’t that what we should do, live in the now and hope for another day?
 
I sometimes get paranoid with fear. The slightest heart flutter or shortness of breath can send me there. It usually takes me a few days to get over it. Oh, but I put up a good front saying “everything’s fine”. But it doesn’t make the internalized fear any less potent. So I live each day as it comes or at least I try. I am not the same man I was 30 years ago nor am I the same person I was yesterday. We all grow and change, just like the weather. So let us all hope the impact we make on this life is a good one.