A Better Path

I guess you can call it a bit of a trade-off, because yesterday it was sunny but freezing. While today is cloudy and dreary, the temperature is much warmer. So you take a win where you can. I went by the Dollar Store to pick up some more boxes for our move. Even though we’ve long wore out our welcome here, we still haven’t gotten a solid yes or no on the apartment yet. But that’s the way it usually works when renting in a sellers’ market where demand greatly outweighs supply. But what can you do, all I know is at least I got a roof over my head till just before Christmas. After that, who the hell knows.

As I have said time and time again, I am a realist. I don’t live on wishes just facts. So who the hell knows what’s going to happen. While I keep getting reassurances that our leasing paperwork is in order, the corporate owners of the building still haven’t said shit. And if you’ve ever deal with a corporation, you know their words mean little, especially when they have the edge. So I sit here stressing over things I cannot control.

So I do my best to remind myself to be patient, to give the powers to be time to approve the paperwork. But my cynical business trained mind refuses to be patient or understanding. So I struggle each and every day with the process of releasing my worry and my stress. At the moment I am journaling in order to let the fear go. I burn a lightly scented candle to remind me to relax and I that deep slow breathes to focus my mind. So that with each stroke of the keys I’m letting go of a little more of my troubles. I say this to simple say, that I understand the troubles you are going through. But through conversation and even a little prayer, hopefully my example can show you a light to a better path.