Creating Balance

Image By: Sandra Saxon Burnsed

It’s another morning of daily routine with opening up the curtains and making my bed. Then of course checking my vitals (blood sugar, heart rate, and blood pressure). Then I have my morning breakfast of 17 pills and powders, light a scented candle, and then I start my day with you. For me routine is a good thing, it keeps my head in a good place, rather it’s in a good place or not. And that’s important because it keeps me honest with myself.

For a while I was living in a world of “plausible deniability” meaning I wasn’t taking responsibility for my actions or outcomes. It’s like smoking most of your life then being and not taking responsibility when you end up with lung cancer. I gladly take the blame for most of my health issues. But with some of my cognitive actions…not so much. I usually end up laying the blame on others when it was I that walked into the situation. But there are times when things come out of the blue and shaming yourself is not the thing to do.

Listen I don’t know what has gotten me on this subject. All I was thinking about when I woke up was how nice it was to sleep through the night. And nice and pretty it was outside my window this morning. I guess thing is we have to strike a balance with ourselves of who we should blame. I mean most of my health issues are obviously because of genetics, but at the same time I knew better. With my cognitive issues, I can see where loved ones shared the same condition. But like with my other health issues it’s up to me to seek help.