Decent Shade

I’ve spent the first twenty minutes of my sit down time outside moving my damn chair around, trying to find some decent shade. I’d move from one side of the yard to the other. But the glare of the sun either blocked my screen or burned the back of my neck. With the sun constantly moving and the wind turning the leaves, it becomes a game of cat and mouse when it comes to finding the perfect shade. But I think we’ve finally reached a happy compromise, with the sun peeking through as a strong breeze blows.

Sitting here with a bit of a headache, I’m sure it’s just my body fussing about being hungry. But I’m about an hour away from lunch so I’m doing my best to put those thoughts aside. It’s a habit I developed when I started working heavy construction. When you often had no choice but to stay on the job until it was done. Even when I got my degree and switched over to a desk job. I still kept that habit. Often letting my food get cold on my desk before I finally stopped to eat it. I assume many would call that a sign dedication or fortitude. But looking back I’m now torn between calling it a strength or just plain stupidity.

After moving my chair again for the tenth time. I’m beginning to wonder if this even has anything to do with the shade. Mainly because my chair is now right back where it started. Often not being satisfied is just that…not being satisfied. The hours of taking precise measurements, the seamless tweaking of a problem on the screen, or moving this damn chair around. Maybe some things are not worth the aggravation and it’s time to just pull back and give your mind a rest. Then later on look problem with fresh eyes. You’ll often discover you were happy with the way things were in the first place.