Buffy our Dumpster Kitten
Not knowing exactly what’s going on, I had a number of tense dreams last night, mostly dealing with failures from my past. Now the day before wasn’t a particularly bad day. So I have no real idea where those dreams came from. All I know for sure is that I woke restless and tired. So today I’m not particularly inspired to write anything other than a journal-like account of my day, instead of my usual cloud of metaphors and vivid poetry.
But as I have said a many times before, life often doesn’t hand us poetry and sunshine. Instead life and it’s lessons come from the mundane and troublesome things that happen to us every day. I mean, as I sit here now in the quiet of my room. My right eye is watering up so bad it’s burring my vision, while my sinuses are stopped up and hurting. I also notice the through the door my wife is also squeezing and uncomfortable. Giving me the cynical satisfaction that I’m not alone in my misery. In a funny way, these are signs of what’s actually going. That this unpleasant morning has nothing to do with some spiritual lesson and more to do with waiting for my meds to kick in
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Noticing this means that the fear that was growing in my head, just needs to chill out and wait for the meds to kick in. So the takeaway from all this should be, don’t be so quick to jump to scary conclusions. Search your emotions, listen, and be aware. In other words use your mindfulness. As you may or may not have noticed, I do most of my meditation through my writing. My words aren’t always glamorous or even spelled correctly. But when listening to my inner self, I become more attuned to what my heart and mind are really trying say. Thereby removing the assumptions of fear and stress. And instead creating a space for peace and understanding. Is any of this making sense to you?
But as I have said a many times before, life often doesn’t hand us poetry and sunshine. Instead life and it’s lessons come from the mundane and troublesome things that happen to us every day. I mean, as I sit here now in the quiet of my room. My right eye is watering up so bad it’s burring my vision, while my sinuses are stopped up and hurting. I also notice the through the door my wife is also squeezing and uncomfortable. Giving me the cynical satisfaction that I’m not alone in my misery. In a funny way, these are signs of what’s actually going. That this unpleasant morning has nothing to do with some spiritual lesson and more to do with waiting for my meds to kick in
.
Noticing this means that the fear that was growing in my head, just needs to chill out and wait for the meds to kick in. So the takeaway from all this should be, don’t be so quick to jump to scary conclusions. Search your emotions, listen, and be aware. In other words use your mindfulness. As you may or may not have noticed, I do most of my meditation through my writing. My words aren’t always glamorous or even spelled correctly. But when listening to my inner self, I become more attuned to what my heart and mind are really trying say. Thereby removing the assumptions of fear and stress. And instead creating a space for peace and understanding. Is any of this making sense to you?
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