More Than I Ever Had

With the curtains drawn and the red lights of the nightstand glowing, I lay in the bed dreading another morning. After reading dozens of posts predicting our gloom and doom, I couldn’t help but want to stay under the covers. But thankfully my bodies natural urges forced me to put down the phone and get out of bed. After an afternoon of scrubbing toilets and bathtubs the back of my legs are burning. But if you want something done right, do it yourself.

So this morning after making up the bed, getting dressed, pulling back the curtains, and taking my medicine. I ran a last minute errand to my wife’s pharmacy for some medicine they forgot to fill. Other than that, I got floors to mop and ceiling fans and vents to clean. Doesn’t sound like much of a life I know, but it’s the only one I got. But after years of chasing a brass ring that was always out of reach. I’ve found peace in the everyday much like my parents and their parents before them. But when the world dangles a carrot in you face and tells you you’re not enough. Suddenly nothing seems to satisfy.

So with the curtains partially open in my office due to the relenting sun, I begin to understand. Often the mundane in life is the only way to find your true self. But then again maybe that’s just me. For each of us is a unique soul driven by the passions only we can describe. For some life is more than just the mundane, it’s a kaleidoscope of vivid colors only you understand. But for me life is about peace of mind, so after a rollercoaster ride of highs and lows. I’d just assume sit here in the quiet, listening to the murmurs of a life lived much more peacefully than I ever had.