Murmuring

I didn’t listen to my body last night and I didn’t go to bed at 8 pm like I should. Which meant I goofed around and listened to a book till 3:30 in the morning like I shouldn’t. Which in turn meant that I didn’t get up and take my medicine till 10 am. At the moment, my eyes are runny and my nose and head are stopped up. And while it’s cool and foggy outside, my head feels like it is the middle of spring.
 
I know that doesn’t paint much of a pretty picture, but while I lay in bed last night. I could feel my heart a-fibbing a little bit while having a text conversation with a friend. Like I said I spent most of the night knee deep in a new autobiography I am listening to, with an ending I’m looking forward to finishing. It’s been a few minutes since I got up and took my meds, but my head and my body still feel exhausted. You don’t suppose that 64 mile around trip to the Cancer Center had anything to do with it? But I made it home as lightheaded as a stumbling toddler, nearly taking a few spills last night and this morning.
 
I suppose my point to all this is, I’m not as young or as healthy as I used to be. And while this old dog would much rather just sit on the porch. His duties as a guard dog and family protector aren’t done. So much like the fog outside, I lie somewhere in the midst of being tired and staying alert. More than anything, I guess I could use a vacation. But that would entail me to pack up and go to an unfamiliar place and spend money I ain’t got. So for the moment, I’ll simply take sanctuary where I can. Deep within these silent walls of our apartment, with the distant noise of the outside world murmuring in the distance.  
 
#Tired #Honest #Rest #MakeTimeForYourself