The Balancing Act

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It feels a bit cool on this first day of fall. So with the curtains opened wide I’m greeting the pre-dawn sky. While the temperature hasn’t changed much. At least I’ve noticed the sun coming up a little slower and setting a little quicker. In my files I’ve already prepared a post for my upcoming blog. Still out of habit, I start the day by working on something new, just to wake up my sleepy head. But yesterday wasn’t such a great day. It wasn’t that I felt bad physically. I just wasn’t prepared to meet the day mentally. In other words, I was being a bitch.

While being aware of that fact doesn’t excuse my behavior. It does give me the responsibility to correct my actions and to right those wrongs. So at the moment I’m not going to beat myself up about it. But I am going to take the time to ask myself why. While this is something I cannot answer at the moment. By taking time to listen to my emotions, I’m giving myself a much more definitive answer than just saying I was an asshole. Knowing and recognizing that fact is an important first step, in the healing process to make things right and rebalance myself.
 
So as another bright morning pours into the windows. I  hope to become more enlightened to the things that create a more balanced life. While anger and frustration are a tools in life. They are tools that should be used sparingly. It’s love, respect, and tolerance that are even greater tools than anger and frustration. So when you take time in your morning prayers and meditation look  beyond just yourself. To look at how grace, pain, happiness, and even anger all work together to create a better you.