For a day that offered such potential, I am a pitiful sight right now. What a heating pad laid across my belly and an ice pack across my head. I look like what my Granny would call, “death warmed over”. But the chronic illnesses that I’m battling are often nothing more than annoyances to me. I don’t know if it’s because I’ve been fighting them for so very long that I say that. Or if each discomfort eventually leads to some form of disability to carry on with my day.
All I know is that the potential that I had put into getting certain task done. Has been thrown out the window like used bath water. There’s no point in listing off the many ailments I carry both physically and mentally. The whole list would result in an onslaught of “oh I’m so sorry” and “you’re in our thoughts and prayers “, which neither one has ever done me any good.
But don’t worry, I’m not bitter or anything, I’m just inconvenienced and hurting at the moment. But as experience has showed me my belly woes will pass with the passage of the gas and excess bile. And my headache and low blood pressure will eventually stabilize once my once my belly woes have passed. Surprisingly my heart, the main thing I’m supposed to be worried about has been rather calm. But I think that has to do a lot with learning to let go of the fear of impending death.
Not to sound too morbid, but the releasing the fear (mostly through Buddhist practice). Has made me more aware of the moment and worry less about the things life forces me to experience. All and all let us learn to accept and improve our situations. Through mindfulness and/or prayer release the worry. Then no matter the inconveniences you experience, and can learn to work through them and live in peace.
All I know is that the potential that I had put into getting certain task done. Has been thrown out the window like used bath water. There’s no point in listing off the many ailments I carry both physically and mentally. The whole list would result in an onslaught of “oh I’m so sorry” and “you’re in our thoughts and prayers “, which neither one has ever done me any good.
But don’t worry, I’m not bitter or anything, I’m just inconvenienced and hurting at the moment. But as experience has showed me my belly woes will pass with the passage of the gas and excess bile. And my headache and low blood pressure will eventually stabilize once my once my belly woes have passed. Surprisingly my heart, the main thing I’m supposed to be worried about has been rather calm. But I think that has to do a lot with learning to let go of the fear of impending death.
Not to sound too morbid, but the releasing the fear (mostly through Buddhist practice). Has made me more aware of the moment and worry less about the things life forces me to experience. All and all let us learn to accept and improve our situations. Through mindfulness and/or prayer release the worry. Then no matter the inconveniences you experience, and can learn to work through them and live in peace.
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