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After a really rough couple of days, I had to run a few errands like picking up the grocery order and getting our prescriptions from the pharmacy. After going by the bank I headed back home. Once I was done with the errands I headed outside to sit down and catch my breath. I then noticed my wife heading towards the Post Office something she usually does in the morning. After a few minutes I went back inside to fix myself some lunch. But what caught my eye was sitting on the kitchen counter were two slices of bread, a butter knife, and a jar of mayonnaise.
Knowing all too well what had just happened, I simply left the bread and mayo sitting there on the counter. That’s because my wife probably intended to make herself a sandwich. But then got caught up thinking about the mail and simply walked away. It’s all part of our normal routine where one thing gets started but never completed. Where instructions, important dates, and even memories have to be repeated again and again, so she understands and remembers. Like I said, it’s been a rough couple of days. Dealing with a scammer trying to gain access to our personal information. With my wife going into panic mode when it happened and me working frantically to change passwords and calling our ISP to avoid any more data breaches. But even with all that still simmering in my head, seeing that unmade sandwich brought me back to reality.
No matter what amount of crap life throws at you, most of our problems can be fixed. But when compared to the way others have to live with such unfair challenges, it is an insult to life to complain. For me to improve it was learning to forgive myself. To give myself the benefit of the doubt. All while remaining aware of the things that feed my pain. But for my wife any many others, they were robbed of any choice to improve. Forced to live in their circumstance, while learning to survive despite it. It’s easy for us to wallow in self-pity and not see the sunshine above the clouds. But God bless those not given a choice, may they always shine a light on our self-centeredness.
Knowing all too well what had just happened, I simply left the bread and mayo sitting there on the counter. That’s because my wife probably intended to make herself a sandwich. But then got caught up thinking about the mail and simply walked away. It’s all part of our normal routine where one thing gets started but never completed. Where instructions, important dates, and even memories have to be repeated again and again, so she understands and remembers. Like I said, it’s been a rough couple of days. Dealing with a scammer trying to gain access to our personal information. With my wife going into panic mode when it happened and me working frantically to change passwords and calling our ISP to avoid any more data breaches. But even with all that still simmering in my head, seeing that unmade sandwich brought me back to reality.
No matter what amount of crap life throws at you, most of our problems can be fixed. But when compared to the way others have to live with such unfair challenges, it is an insult to life to complain. For me to improve it was learning to forgive myself. To give myself the benefit of the doubt. All while remaining aware of the things that feed my pain. But for my wife any many others, they were robbed of any choice to improve. Forced to live in their circumstance, while learning to survive despite it. It’s easy for us to wallow in self-pity and not see the sunshine above the clouds. But God bless those not given a choice, may they always shine a light on our self-centeredness.
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