I Understand: Imperfection

It’s so damn easy to tell someone to “quiet their thoughts”. But it’s a whole other thing to do it yourself. If you’ve ever read anything I’ve wrote, you know my work is littered with confessions of my own imperfects. Especially when it comes to my ability of quieting my own thoughts. It often amazes me to be able to process so much information about a subject, yet never being able to put it into practice.

I’ve listened to so motivational speakers and read so many books on the subject, that my mind is now numb to their affect. All they ever left me with was more guilt and more feelings of imperfection. And don’t get me started on religion, my wife begs you. Honey, I lived in the abyss for many, many years. “Hello darkness, my old friend…” was freaking theme song. 
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But I’m not going to lay here and give you another canned and homogenized version of how to overcome. I value your intelligence more than that. What I am going to say it is a non-stop journey that hopefully takes you to your nirvana or heaven or whatever. But my main focus here is to tell you, I understand. I get how you feel. To wake up in cold sweats and being afraid for no reason. I understand.