Over It...

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​Talk about depressing, on my upcoming birthday I’ll be the same age as my Mom and Dad when they died. So technically I’ll be older than my parents starting this year. Ain’t that a kick. Used to whine and b*tch about it, but for some reason I’m just over it. As I may have told you a thousand and one times, I had a real fear of death. But ever since 2015, I’ve pretty much gotten over that. 

Since then I’ve adopted a “laissez-faire” attitude towards it all. Now that doesn’t mean I just let the chips fall where they may. Or that I’m all for deregulation of everything in life. To me it simply means, “what will be, will be”. In other words, take the cards you’re dealt and play your hand. Now that doesn’t mean you can’t bluff or take any new cards. It just means to play it smart. At one point I was 356 lbs., a smoker, and all around totally unhealthy person. So after my brush with the reaper, I did my research, listened to my doctors. And although I still have so many more health issues than I can name, I’m proactive and continue to do something about it.
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Last Tuesday, my doctor weighed me fully dressed out 231 lbs. This morning my blood pressure was 119/68, and my blood glucose was 87. Not perfect, but certainly better. Yeah, I may have given up on a lot of things in my life. But ever since completing my graduate degree and then seeing the other side of life; I’ve learned a few things. One, don’t take your health for granted. Two, do what makes you happy. Three, quit living in an attitude of misery, feeling sorry for yourself. Four, listen to your body and your mind. Don’t brush aside the pain, listen to what your mind, heart, and soul are telling you. And five, learn to forgive, especially yourself.