Restrict Myself

It’s been a few days since I ventured outside. Not that it’s been rainy or cold, it’s mostly due to being inconveniently ill. For the last few days my continuing digestive issues have kept me confined to the house. But today has been a “dry day” so I decided to head outside despite the cloudy weather. I hate having to restrict myself, according to how my mind and body responds. But we do what we have to do.

That’s kind of strange where I am in my life right now. It feels like I’m in some sort of holding pattern, you know, just waiting. In a life that has been consumed with deadlines and crisis after crisis to resolve. It’s a little “weird” to just sit here and be. Maybe I should just consider this my reward for giving so much. But in all honesty, my ego would never let me go that far.
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So I sit here in the autumn of life, hoping for at least a few more years. But at the moment, I’ll just sit back and enjoy the scenery. Watching, observing, and listening to what the natural world has to say. Other than that, I’ll try and not allow myself to get too bored with the way things are. For life is a back and forth struggle between ourselves and the world around us. So don’t let it get you down, despite the circumstance. For faith has a way of seeing you through, whatever the restriction.