But beyond that I ain’t complaining (really I’m not). I’m just sitting here at the laptop driving myself crazy trying to learn this updated Adobe Express (I know, complaining). But other than that I’m doing okay, my appointment with the neurosurgeon went well. They are scheduling me an MRI on my back and neck, and we’ll go from there. Life is a funny thing considering all the bullshit I’ve gone through both physically and mentally over the years. Now that I’ve passed a threshold I never thought I would pass (living beyond the age of 59). I guess it’s time to reassess my goals and boundaries.
While I’ve never been big on goals or boundaries, I do have one true passion in my life which is my writing. After several books and thousands of stories published, you’d think I would have run out of shit to say. But to be honest when 99% of the time you’re writing in the first person. Who ever really gets tired of talking about themselves? Still I wonder, I’m I justified to continually babble on about myself? Couldn’t I just write about the “seven steps towards a happier and more productive life”? My honest answers to that question would be: (1) I’m a lazy writer, and (2) Hell, I don’t know.
Passion and love are often inquisitive, meaning if you’re sincere about your wants the answer is always out there. It may not be the answer you wanted, but it’s there. I do my damnest to practice what I preach. But in order to find fulfillment you often end up turning over a lifetime of rocks. So I say, go ahead and start turning. Hopefully the worst thing that’s going to happen is your little AC unit freezes up and you end up being a little uncomfortable for a while.